heartache

in deep pain...

want to say a word but speechless....

what can i do.....

what can i still do in this stage....
can't move forward...

but something changed after this tragedy happened

wake up from nightmare at 5am

in that dream, i was tracing by a bad man to kill me
i make myself wake up and not to fall in the same dream again

sad

grief

loss

scared

i want to be hugged and to hug someone

其實明天如何,你們還不知道。 你們的生命是甚麼呢? 你們原來是一片雲霧,出現少時就不見了。(雅四14)

我知道你也在痛苦中
也有自己的事要煩惱

時間是不是停止了.....
但似乎外面的世界還是在滾動

我真的很憎自己

恨不得將自己鎖在箱子裡

永遠都一個人待著

現在就像待在其中一個夢中

手中的信物也令自己知道我還在夢中

但就一直待在這樣

一動也不動

何時 何時

今天天氣很好

幸好我還可以上班

好久沒有彈過, 雖然她沒有口說話, 但也聽得出她的寂寞....
原來看著結他斷弦是這樣的, 心會有點痛....

she was happy because she had a partner, and because they were building something together, and because she believed deeply in what they were building, and because it amazed her to be included in such an undertaking.

from "Committed" by Elizabeth Gilbert

"When you become infatuated with somebody,

you're not really looking at that person;

you're just captivated by your own reflection,

intoxicated by a dream of completion that you have projected on a virtual stranger..."

from "Committed" by Elizabeth Gilbert

"When you have only one path set before you, you can generally feel confident that it was a correct path to have taken."

"So we live in danger of becoming paralyzed by indecision, terrified that every choice might be the wrong choice."

from "Committed" by Elizabeth Gilbert

shame on myself....

learn from 港九培靈研經會 :午堂的陳世協牧師~~

我們的人生有許多的"約旦河", 但只要跟著約櫃走, 存著敬畏上帝的心, 憑信心, 就可以走一條沒有走過的路!! 一切的困難都會過的~

sorry.....