feel very weak these two weeks
many things happened

father's sickness and operation
my birthday
presentation
man kit's loss in hiking
lack of rest
tones of work
lonely feeling that was totally because of my selfish fault

i can't stand it anymore

自找的

I just can't stop my sorrow, saddness, and tears.
Miss u and our happy time.
I am facing some difficulty and I need you around.
What can I do?
Jesus, what can I do?

Why? Why u had the first idea to separate? Why u do not just let me to by your side ? I know I don't know how to love, how to take care of people around me. Why we lose our confidence and love? Jesus, please tell me why.

From candy , weeping on bed